28 Years

Oh Alan, my Lanay Ichaelmay Ayray. How do I sum up 28 years of our lives? How do I tell tell people how much I love you, how big of a hole is left in my soul and my being without you! How do I continue without you? For 28 years you have been there to help me grow as a person, as a sister! You helped me be the momma I am today, you taught me what it was like to be truly loved for just being me. You loved unconditionally, your smile and your laughter would fill a room, and hang long after you left the room! You loved to make everyone else laugh. You sure wanted everyone to be happy all the time. You NEVER wanted anyone to be upset. For every heartbreak I had, every time I cried about something, everytime anyone upset me, You were always ready to fix it. IF you could have beat up everyone who hurt me, you would have. If that person was ever around after they hurt me you would get justice for me with your eyes. When I found out I was pregnant with Addison you just glowed with excitement to be an Uncle. Although you didn’t want nothing to do with the little baby who squealed and cried loud all the time, she became your favoritest person in the entire world. When I told you I was pregnant with each following kid, you just rolled your eyes and were like “this again!” but you welcomed each niece and nephew into your life with love.
Alan my soul hurts so bad without you. Having you in my life for 28 years was not long enough. Your soul was one of a kind, your smile was infectious, your laugh contagious, your love was strong. I had a special bond with you that went beyond just a sibling bond. You were such a big part of my soul and my heart. Alan I know you are up there with Granny laughing at those fairy tales with the “Naked Granny in the closet”. Running and walking all over Heaven simply because you can now! While my heart hurts so badly for you to still be here; I know you are no longer hurting, you’re not bound by your earthly body. Give Granny a big ol kiss for me and I’ll see ya later Alan!